Wednesday, May 22, 2013

I Promise, I Tried

I promise that I've tried.  I promise that I've been thinking about inspiring you.  I know that's why you come here, and I love you so very much.

And I feel like I've let you down.

I'm not looking for sympathy, or pity comments or anything like that, I promise.

But every night, I sit here and think of what to say, and I'm drawing some serious blanks.  I'm going to go with writer's block, or lack of inspiration for myself and therefore, the inability to pass anything on to you. 

I hope you'll forgive me, but I'm going to take a little break. 

I miss the passion I had for this activity.  I miss when this wasn't a chore.  Even cutting back to 3-4 posts a week isn't doing the trick.

I want to come here and tell you something that makes you excited.  That helps brighten your day.  That gives you the extra oomph that YOU need to get through YOUR day.  Because you all do that for me, every single day.

But I don't have anything right now.  Not because I'm in a bad place.  I'm actually in a really great place.  But I just don't have anything valuable to impart unto you. 

And I'm sorry. 

I won't be gone long.  Who knows.  Maybe I'll be back Tuesday.

Until whenever, know that I'm still stalking you all and loving you and appreciating you!

Have amazingly awesome and incredible holiday weekends.  I'm headed to Boise to visit with a new friend. I'll leave you all with that. (yeah, I'm a jerk that way!)

Have an awesome day!

Monday, May 20, 2013

Weekends = Friends + Food

That last of my friends said that the cloud looks like a saber tooth tiger.  I think it looks like Thundercats...HOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!! Don't even pretend like you don't know what I'm talking about.

The weekend, my beautiful friends, was awesome!  It was focused on great, home cooked food, family/friends, togetherness, sharing, caring, much laughing!!

And that's all I have to say about that. No need for long, drawn out paragraphs detailing every second.  Just know that this smile is sincere.  And these words are real.  And this life is good!

Have an awesome day!

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Thursday, May 16, 2013


When I was younger, like, junior high and high school, I had a problem...kind of an OCD issue, actually.  When I would look at a digital clock, I had to divide the hour by the minute, like, had to do it, every time.  If the answer wasn't a whole number, I had to wait, staring at the clock, until the equation equaled a whole number.  I literally made myself insane doing this, to the point that I would, in my head, beg myself to stop staring at the clock.  At some point, I grew out of this habit, luckily before I completely went insane.

I'm fairly certain that NO ONE knows that little tidbit.  You're welcome.

I've mentioned before that I"m a creature of habit.  I would be the easiest person in the world to stalk.  It's ridiculous and annoying.  But it's who I am and how I roll.

I started writing this post while thinking about the patterns, or habits, of successful people.  These people, these successful types...they have certain things they do, day in and day out, no matter how tired they are, how lazy they feel, how hormonal they get...they just do it.

And let me be clear.  By "successful," I don't only mean financially successful people  Sure, Oprah and Trump have certain ways of doing thing, and clearly it works for them.  But I'm talking about people who are successful in life in general, whether it be in their own business, in their marriage, in raising perfect little angels...people who are success at their LIVES do certain things.  My take on what those things are:

1. They study.  They read, take classes, further educate themselves in whatever it is that they want to be successful at.

2. They are teachable.  Please take this very literally, and hopefully to heart: YOUR EGO is the only thing holding you back from whatever it is that you want your success to be.  Ego creates fear, hesitation, road blocks.  Get over yourself.  Only then can you move forward.

3. They are PASSIONATE.   We've talked about this, but plain and simple: if your heart and soul aren't deeply rooted in whatever it is that you want your success to be, then you need to question why you want to be successful at that thing.  If you're not dumping your everything into it, then you likely don't want it that badly.

4. They are humble.  I'm not saying that Trump is out apologizing for anything, ever, but normal people see the world and realize that faults are a part of it.  Shyte happens.  Successful people deal with that and move on to next steps.

All of this stems from the fact that I haven't been following #1 very well.  I've been flaking on trainings.  I've been lazy when it comes to remembering to login to webinars, listen in on calls, go to FREE local trainings.

If I want to succeed the way that I want to, and the way that I KNOW that I'm capable, then I need to get my act together.  Because this boat is sailing with or without me.  And who doesn't want to have a major chunk of a soon-to-be billion dollar company? 

I know, right?

OK, that's it.  Have fabulous weekends, my beautiful friends!  Love your faces!

Have an awesome day!

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Wednesday, May 15, 2013

Keep Going

Just a reminder.

Don't stop.

Stuff gets hard.  Life is confusing.  Certain things suck.

But don't stop.

Keep going.

Your power to stick and stay will far outweigh any down swing you're in right now.

So keep going.

And keep smiling, because you look so beautiful when you smile!

Have an awesome day!

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Monday, May 13, 2013

10 Things That Make Me Really Happy

So, Jenni over at Story of My Life is on a mission.  She got this crazy idea to write a blog post in May.  Impressive, don't you think?  And for those of us who have written less (aka: what, so I've only written like 6 or 7, maybe 8 times this month, so what??!), she has created an idea list (bless her soul!).  Today's hit is 10 Things, and after this past weekend, I think this is a perfect topic.  So here we go!

My beautiful momma!  My parents came to hang out this past weekend, and man oh man...I'm so very thankful for these two!  What a great weekend!!

Wine, water, wine and (not so much, because I tried them both), beer!  But I do love the bottles!

That face. life would be horribly lonely without this boy.  I love him so very much, in all of his annoyingness.

Sunrises and sunsets.  That is all.

Tunes on my patio on a beautiful, sunny evening.  Life is THIS GOOD!

Getting my face squished by the beautiful Nikki, a friend that I wouldn't have if it wasn't for this here blog!  Absolutely amazing how life works out, don't you think?

So yeah, these things, they make my heart happy.  And for having this idea for today when my heart was struggling with what to post, Jenni makes me happy too!

Have an awesome day, friends!

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Friday, May 10, 2013

Happy Mother's Day!

Happy Mother's Day to all of you beautiful mommas out there!

I hope that you are able to bask in the awesomeness that makes you a mom.  I hope that you are able to enjoy your coffee on the patio Saturday AND Sunday mornings.  I hope that you are pampered far beyond your wildest dreams.  I hope that you are able to spend this day celebrating exactly the way YOU want to celebrate it!

My momma is coming to visit this weekend.  She needed a getaway and I'm so happy to provide it to her!  We will be eating delicious food, drinking yummy grapes, and enjoying the heat this weekend!  Well...I'll be enjoying the heat, she may melt.  But it's going to be an AWESOME weekend, either way!

Love you friends!  Have great weekends!

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Thursday, May 9, 2013

Best Friends

here and here

Yesterday was Jan's memorial service.  I would consider this to be the hardest service I've attended.

The church was packed with family and friends, there to celebrate an amazing woman who was so full of life and passion, and so very giving.  The pastor read letters that her family wrote her.  A slide show played that celebrated so many important moments in her life, and in every single photo, her smile...her smile touched my soul.  And what I think is all sorts of awesomeness...the woman never aged!  Two battles with cancer and she looked as beautiful at 59 as she did when she was 25!

The last letter that the pastor read was one from Jan's husband, Nick.  His words, his passion for his wife, the love that they shared that continued to grow stronger for 33 years...I can't find a word to describe what stirred inside of me hearing this letter.

After the service, we all went to Jan and Nick's house to celebrate her life.  Each night, Nick and Jan would sit on their swing on the patio, near the pool, and watch the sun set. It was their "thing."  Last night, we all gathered on the patio to watch the sun set, and toasted Jan as the sun sunk behind the hills.  To be there, to hold my (extended) family in my arms at that very thankful.

I talked to Nick for a while last night, or more so hugged him and listened to him speak about the love of his life.  He talked about having so much respect for her, loving her with everything he had, their life together and with their boys, listening to the boys have pool parties and how much she loved the laughter that their friends brought into the home.  After 35 years together, he still chased her around like a high school boy.  Nick lost his very best friend in the whole world.  My heart is aching for him and his family.

Friends, go make the call, visit, email, whatever it is.  Don't let a moment slip by.  Life is short; take advantage of every second.

Have an awesome day!

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Wednesday, May 8, 2013

For Jan

That guy on the left?  That's one of my best friends, Ryan.

And that beautiful woman next to him?  That's his momma, Jan.  Isn't she gorgeous?

Jan passed away on Saturday, April 27.  She had been fighting cancer since last December. Unfortunately, the cancer won.

Jan was an incredible woman, one that her son loves very much.  Her kind, giving spirit touched many people, including my group of friends, The Crew.

Last spring, we all hiked Badger, and then went over to Jan and Nick's house for breakfast, which consisted of the most AMAZING croissant french toast (seriously, so good!), and all sorts of bacon and fruit and goodness. Ryan had been RAVING about the french toast for way too was wonderful to finally indulge in it!

Two days ago, Ryan and I hiked Badger.  Usually we reserve this for Sunday mornings, but the weather was beautiful and he needed to clear his head, so I invited myself to tag along.  Our last Sunday hike together, after we finished and started to drive away, he called me..."I just talked to mom and told her that we hiked.  She asked if you kicked my ass again." I laughed...because of course I had!  As we hiked Monday night, that memory flashed through my mind.  I know his call her each time he finishes the hike.  Tonight would be different, and my heart sank.  At the end of the hike, he brought up this same fact, that he usually calls her.  I was thankful that I had my sunglasses on so that he couldn't see my eyes water.

I only met this beautiful woman once, at her home, but when Ryan sent me the text last Saturday that read, "Mom isn't doing well.  Now is the time to pray," I cried.  I cried and cried and couldn't stop.  I wrote him back, told him that I love him, and to please tell her that I love her, and that she didn't need to worry, because we would take care of him...and we will.  I can't even type that without crying...but we will, Jan.  I promise!

Jan, I am thankful that you are out of pain.  I am thankful to have known you, even for a short time.  You are loved, and you are missed.  Rest in peace.

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Sunday, May 5, 2013

The Reason Why

Beautiful friends, hello!  Welcome to your new week! How were your weekends?  Mine was amazing!

It was my dear Hadley Flynn's 6th bday!  I'm still unsure how time has flown THAT quickly that she can be 6 already, but apparently it's happened. Her Cuatro de Mayo fiesta was great, and complete with the kind of candles that don't blow out.  AWESOME!

The weekend was full of family and friends and AdvoCare and more friends and more family.  And gorgeous weather!  Holy goodness!  80+ degrees in Portland...that rarely even happens this early in the year. 

And I wanted to share those trees with you.  They are my favorite.  I think I've mentioned them before...certainly shared photos of them before.  Today, rather than taking my typical photos of them as I whiz by at 65 mph (you know, because that's the speed limit and I never drive 75+ to and from Portland...), I actually stopped.  I stopped to take the photos that my mind sees...and I've gotta say, I'm pretty stinking impressed with myself!  I could stare at those two up there all day long.  They might need to become my next canvases.  We shall see.  But that is the reason they are my favorite...just look at them!

OK, I don't have anything exciting today.  But I wanted to say hello and happy new week and make it your very best! 

Have an awesome day!

Thursday, May 2, 2013

Running Away (just for a few...)

I was looking for words that were completely different, and I found these.  And I like them.  Just a reminder to don't.  Don't waste a single day, hour,  minute.  Stop and look around you, pay attention.  You never know who's looking to you to be the change!

I'm taking this show on the road for the weekend.  It's going to be a busy, friend packed weekend and I"m super excited!  I hope you all have marvelous weekends as well!

Have an awesome day!

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