Tuesday, July 31, 2012


I've never been one to listen to my intuition...or realize that I have one, I guess.  Women always talk about "knowing" stuff and "feeling" that something was going to happen/did happen/whatever, but I've never had that.  I've never been one who goes around saying, oh yeah, I totally knew such and such was going down.

That is, until now.

My guts have been telling me all sorts of stuff lately, and they have been SPOT ON every single time.  From running into people at certain locations to things happening that others may try to deny, my guts have been telling me the truth for the last couple of months.

Most of the time, it's not stuff that I really want to know about or admit to or believe, but my intuition is a truth teller.  I'm going to guess intuition has been by my side all along, but I've just made the choice to ignore it because I didn't like the answer.

Fortunately, I'm super in tune with it now.  Everything it says, I believe.  Over anyone's words, I believe myself.  I am the only one who won't lie to me.  I believe in ME.

Moral of the story friends...listen to your guts: they know what they're talking about!  Love you!

Have an awesome day!

Monday, July 30, 2012

Live with PURPOSE, part deux

Our prime purpose in this life is to help others. And if you can't help them, at least don't hurt them.
Dalai Lama

Last week, I spilled my guts here about my AdvoCare Purpose...about having money to pay off debt, refi my house, etc. etc.  I've been working under this general Purpose for about three months now.  And it is a good Purpose, a strong one.  But it's not me, or mine.  I've struggled with it daily, to be quite honest.

Truth is, I mentioned in that other post that I don't want to be loaded.  I have no desire to have the biggest house on the the block.  I don't need a lot of money or things...I just want to continue to pay my bills on time...and have enough extra so that I can avoid having a roommate once this one moves out.  Details.

This past Friday night, I was getting ready to meet a friend for dinner.  I stepped out of the shower and it hit me like a ton of bricks...my Purpose.  If you've read me long enough, you know that I am the Sunshine Giver.  I receive GREAT joy from helping others be happy and healthy and enjoy life.  I've recently discovered that I'm also pretty good at helping people believe in themselves.  So, why in the world wouldn't I take these things, these ideals that come naturally to me, and wrap them up with a product that I totally believe in and that has already helped so many of my friends become healthier and happier?  No brainer, right?!  Seriously...sometimes the blonde really takes over!

Friends, my Purpose in AdvoCare, and in this amazing life that I've been given, is to help people be healthy, be happy, and to BELIEVE in themselves.  This is my goal in life, and it fits so well with AdvoCare.

I'm just really excited about this whole stinking idea and I wanted to share with you. Thanks for listening!

Have an awesome day!

Sunday, July 29, 2012

Boat Races (aka: Lounging on the Boat)

Friday night sunset/Diamonds on the Columbia River

Shamu, our savior on the swift moving river/My Diesl boy

Already friends, Diane and Jacque/New boat friends

It was a good time, this boat race weekend. 
We made new friends.
We soaked up the sun.
We applied sunsceen...often. 
I took a nap in that white and blue floaty above.  That was really nice.  Naps are needed when the margaritas and apple pie drink are free flowing.
Today has been super relaxing.  I've been thinking about Spain and trying to wrap my head around the possibilities.  And then I get overwhelmed.  And then I freak out.  And then I stop planning.  Guess that's why we're only five weeks out and I have no plans yet.  Funny how that works.  But I'm counting on my bff who has been to Europe several times, who knows the ins and outs to help me out...since she's the one who convinced me to buy the plane ticket in the first place!  Love you Kris!  :)
Friends, I hope you had spectacular weekends!  This week is going to be a crazy one at work, but I do believe I'm ready.  Check that...I've totally got this!
Have an awesome day!

Thursday, July 26, 2012

Friday's Letter

Dear Boat Race Weekend: YAHOO!  I'm so excited that you're here!  I'm looking forward to celebrating you on Saturday while lounging on Double D's boat, people watching, meeting new friends, oh, and I suppose watching some of the actual races!  And the weather will be HOT!  Guaranteed to be good times!   
Dear Sunday: Sunday, glorious Sunday...guess what we're going to do?  Well, we're going to clean the bathrooms.  And probably the dog. But, more importantly, we're going to PLAN A TRIP TO SPAIN!!  YAHOO!  Yeah...five weeks from Tuesday...guess I should figure out what the heck is up!  :)   
Dear Self: Welcome back!!  It is so very good to have you back.  Please don't go to that dark, scary place ever again.  It doesn't suit you well AT ALL.  This you, the real you, the sunshiny one...it looks so very good on you. Don't loose it again!  (Guy at the airport bar last weekend: "The worst thing you can do is to veer away from yourself." Smart words, young grasshopper.)   

1: Dessert last night/2: Sunrise this morning/3: Yours truly/ 4: Weird Monkey positions

Dear Alcohol: After this weekend, you and I will be taking a break, Rachel and Ross style.  It's been fun, but it's time for us to reevaluate our relationship.  August is "focus on Spain" month and you, my dear friend, do not help me focus, on anything, not one little bit.  So I will bid you ado for a span.  Catch ya on the flip side!  
Dear Friends: Thank you for putting up with my negativity the last few weeks, and then letting me go MIA, and then still coming back to read me.  I appreciate each and every one of you so very much!  You ROCK!

Have super incredible weekends everyone!  And don't forget...I BELIEVE IN YOU!

Love ya!


Wednesday, July 25, 2012

Live with PURPOSE

"When you become SUCCESSFUL, you don't ask what's wrong with something; you ask what's RIGHT with it!"
annonymous...because I can't find who said it. 

AdvoCare asks the question of every Distributor, "what is your Purpose?"  Why are you here?  What is your goal and how will AdvoCare get you there?

My Purpose is debt and financial freedom.  The husband of ex (aka J) and I have a huge chunk of credit card debt (sorry mom!). And two homes, one of which we're upside down in. And my house, the not-upside-down one, I have until next April to get to a place financially that I can refinance it into my name or else I have to sell. That's our deal.  I'll stick to it.

Don't get me wrong...I make OK money at my day job...enough to pay the bills and have money to live on.  But it's not enough money to get AHEAD.  And I don't want J to feel like I'm not holding up my end of the deal because I make less.  I helped get us into this financial pit, so I will help get us out.

Enter opportunity with AdvoCare.

I've had a lot of questions this week about why AdvoCare.  Here are two reasons:

I already know that the products work; they've helped turn this body into a lean, mean fighting machine (OK, not so much fighting, but you get the point).  It's certainly a product I believe in.

The company is backed by a Scientific and Medical Advisory Board...a bunch of scientist and doctors making sure that the composition of each product is safe and provides the best nutrition to the human body.  I can stand behind that for sure.

Friends, I'm declaring to you...my Purpose is to become financially stable and to become debt free.  I don't need to be loaded; that's not my style.  But I will become stable, both for my current and future lives.  And from this point forward, I will pour all that I have into that Purpose!

In general, in your life, what is your Purpose? What gets you moving every morning and keeps you going throughout the day? 

Have an awesome day!

Tuesday, July 24, 2012

Compassion and Empathy

"Be kind, for everyone you meet is 
fighting a harder battle."  
- Plato

I have a confession to make.  Maybe it's all the stress I've been under.  Maybe it's because men are babies and totally suck.  Maybe it's because I stopped caring about myself, so how could I care about someone else.

Whatever it is...I've been hating on the roommate.  I won't lie.  I mentioned here that there have been issues (important issues, like not paying rent on time and with no explanation, mind you), and I was getting tired of it.

Fact is, he's been messed up.  I didn't realize it fully when I wrote that other post, but the guy has some serious back issues.  He broke it in college, which I knew, and he occasionally has pain, which I knew.  But for the past five weeks, he's been messed up.  So messed up that he could hardly walk.  That I thought he would take a header down the stairs.  That his doctor put him on pain meds and muscle relaxers and the guy unfortunately doesn't know how to control substances (if you catch my drift).

I was thinking about it all today. I've been short with him.  I've been annoyed with him.  I've listened to his ramblings and just looked at him like, really?!

I'm annoyed that he fell (because I pictured him coming over the top of the half wall and landing on the living room floor 20 feet below). I'm annoyed that the kitchen isn't cleaner.  I'm annoyed that he hasn't worked in 4.5 weeks, therefore hasn't been paid, therefore most likely would be late on rent again next month...

And then it hit me.  I'm an ass.  This guy is in some serious pain, pain that I pray I will never know.  And I'm worried about how it's affecting me.  My lack of compassion and empathy for his situation made me disappointed in myself.  I was looking at it as "I'm being taken advantage of," which was partially true, but I didn't need to roll my eyes (to myself) when I heard him coming down the stairs...with his cane.  Ugh.

Good news...the guy had some sort of electro-shock acupuncture therapy today and it seems to work.  He came bounding down the stairs like a 12 year old.  And his doc released him to go back to work tomorrow! YAHOO!

Point is...think about the negative thoughts toward others that float around in your head.  Are compassion and empathy more viable options? 

Have an awesome day!

Monday, July 23, 2012

The Power of ONE

Goooood morning, Ft. Worth!

This past weekend, I attended AdvoCare Success School in Ft. Worth, TX.  And it blew.my.mind.  Seriously.  Some very important things happened for me this weekend, and if you'll indulge me, I'd like to share (oh wait, that's right.  This is my blog, and you are my friends...of COURSE you want to hear!)

- FOCUS: For the last couple of weeks, three to be exact, I haven't been myself. You may have noticed.  This weekend allowed me to focus on what is important in my life currently.  I took the opportunity to listen to the speakers and hear their words and apply them to my life.  Yes, there were some tears shed.  But they were tears that helped wash the evil spirits out of my heart, body and soul.  Friends, I'm BACK!  Waiting at DFW airport yesterday to come home, I felt like me.  I had a smile across my face, I was confident in who I am and what I'm doing, and it showed.  My friend picked me up from the airport and said he could tell the second he saw me that I was back to myself. My coworker this morning told me that I had a glow or aura around me.  I haven't felt this good in almost two months.  And all it took was a weekend away to focus on me.

- THE POWER OF ONE: Toward the end, a common conversation between the husband of ex and I was regarding the fact that he is the only one that can make himself happy.  I tried to make him happy, but failed.  It took a lot of therapy for me to realize that I didn't really "fail," but more so, it was never something that I could be successful at.

I heard this weekend about the Power of One.  I am the only one who can make me happy (this is my mantra, but occasionally we all need to be reminded of our mantras).  Only I can create success for myself.  Only I can make a connection with the TSA lady or the flight attendant. I am the one who will make this life successful. I am the one who brings the sunshine and joy to my life.  And by projecting that sunshine and joy, I am able to bring the sunshine to so many others.  And for me...well, this is why I've been put on this Earth...to encourage others and help them realize that they too can utilize the Power of One.

You too can be in a happier place.  It's all about your mindset.  It's all about what you want your life to be.  Everyone has choices.  And each choice has a consequence.  POSITIVE choices = POSITIVE consequences.  (humbly removing self from soapbox)

Friends, do you believe in the Power of ONE?  Do you believe that you have the power to make or break yourself? I believe you do...and I believe that you will make the positive choice!

Have an awesome day!

Sunday, July 22, 2012

I Believe in You

I believe in you. And I will believe in you until YOU believe in you.

Friends, I'm back. And I've missed you so very much! I attended an incredible AdvoCare training in Ft. Worth, TX. I learned a ton, but more importantly,I now understand what role AdvoCare will play in my life...and I promise you, it's going to be an amazing life! This girl is back...as promised, reenergized, focused, determined, and ready to take over the world!

Want to join me? :)

More about the weekend later. I'm currently on layover in Seattle, anxious to get home and see the fur babies.

But I wanted to say hi. And let you know that I believe in you! You are AMAZING!

Have an awesome day!

Wednesday, July 18, 2012


"Life is like a game of cards. The hand that is dealt you represents determinism; the way you play it is free will."
Jawaharal Nehru

Hi friends.

Just wanted to let you know that I'm going to be MIA for a few.  I'm leaving for Ft. Worth for the weekend to attend AdvoCare Success School, and I'm soooo excited!! 

The plan: come back reenergized, refreshed, and with my normal, positive energy, inspiring self in tow, because let's face it...I'm sucking this week at being motivational and inspirational.

Next week will be better...I promise!

In the meantime, I hope that your thoughts take you higher, your dreams fill your soul, and that you never lose sight of the path you're on, because it is where you are meant to be at this exact moment. Learn from it, every single day!

Have an awesome day!

Tuesday, July 17, 2012


I mentioned in this post that I attempted to read 50 Shades, but then decided I'd be better off scooping my eyes out with a plastic spoon.

And fact...this is much less about that stupid, poorly written piece of crap book and more so about my grey.

And that's where that post stops and this one begins.  I had a long, drawn out monologue prepared for you that talked about friends gained, and friends lost. It lamented about my hollow shell of a self that I am currently experiencing, and ended in the realization of the last time I felt this way (January-ish) and what I did to get out of it (stop drinking).  That's already on schedule for August.  Everyone can now breathe a collective sigh of relief.

But what caused that entire post to be scrapped was my sister.

Earlier this evening, I made a phone call to a dear friend who I haven't spoken to in several long months...a friend who I may never speak to again. I was feeling low because that friend didn't answer my call.

And then my phone rang, and my sister called.  Pretty much right at that moment. And the pic that came up when she called made me smile...a lot...

Yes, her nickname is Handle.  Don't judge.
At that moment, everything else disappeared.
Nothing matter.
My Seezder called just because she thought she should.
Thank you God.
Not that I was going off the deep end or anything, but it was perfect...in so many ways.

Friends, have you received that call lately?  That one single call that takes everything away?  That makes you realize, yeah, things may be rough right now, but it's still going to be OK?  If not, send me your number...I'll be your call.  For real, promise.  

Have an awesome day!

Monday, July 16, 2012

...and then i was bold

the calm before the storm, unfiltered, unadulterated, as is

i stared at you
i looked deep into your eyes
and your soul
and you lied
for the millionth time
you lied.

and then i stood up
i told you no more
i told you you weren't allowed
and that your deceit and your filth was no longer welcome.

and you hated me even more
and you showed your true self
the one that i didn't know before
but learned so well over a 30 day span

the inbetweenness. story.of.my.life.

and then i was bold
and i again said no more
and i told you to get out
and as usual you didn't respect
and you pursued
and you pushed your own agenda

and in my weakest moment
when i couldn't handle you any longer
when i couldn't handle any of it any more
i persevered
i was bold
and i was strong
and you no longer existed.

my one and only lightning shot ever capture (thus far). taken with my iphone,
not my camera.

love you, friends
for real
so much

Sunday, July 15, 2012

Oh July

This month has been crazy busy (and expensive)!  I'm looking forward to a calmer August, but in the meantime, I'm not letting July go without having an incredible time!

The Waddido White Party was amazing!  The live band was great, the wine flowed (it was at Thompson Hill Cellars, after all!), the DJ finally decided to play music worth dancing to in the last half hour...and the people watching, well, let's just say there was plenty of opportunity (insert snarky Angie here). Overall, a super great time with fabulous friends!

Today was breakfast with the girls and then Magic Mike!  Good fun fact: we thought the movie started at noon; it actually started at 1:30.  Yes, that did mean time for another round!  YAHOO!

Friends, how were your weekends?  I hope they were super fabulous!

Have an awesome day!

Thursday, July 12, 2012

Friday's Letters

"When you have something good, you don't play with it.
You don't take chances with it.
When you've got something good, you get every single thing you can get out of it. Cause guess what?
When you take care of something good, that something good takes care of you."

Dear Friday the 13th: I ain't scared.  Fact is, you're still a Friday; therefore, you'll still be awesome.  So take that!
Dear Body: You've been struggling this last week or so with the workouts...this heat is taking its toll. But I'm so proud of you!  You totally killed all of the lifting sessions this week, and your run tonight...AMAZING!  Great work!
Dear New Music on My iPod: Thankyouthankyouthankyou!  I don't know what took my so long to add new mixes, but tonight's run is dedicated to you, rockmyrun.com's Invincible! This mix is infused with motivational quotes...and it was absolutely perfect!  The quote above is from this mix.  Unfortunately, the website doesn't tell me who said it, and either does the googles.  Lame. But on a good note, there was one song placed at the exact right moment that made me run harder, longer, and with a huge smile on my face.  PERFECT!
Dear Ultimate White Party: Oh.My.Goodness.  You are going to be soooo much fun!  Good wine, great friends, networking, live music and a pool?  Yes. Yes please!
Dear Summer Heat: I don't care what everyone else says...I'm so thankful that you're here.  YOU ROCK!
Dear Fam: I'm missing you.  Kind of a lot.  But I'll come down soon and see you, OK?  Love you!
Dear Shard of Glass that I just stepped on: Really? I've swept the floor 40 times since I shattered that glass.  That was not nice.  Not nice at all.
Dear Friends:  Yes, you.  Over there in blog reader land.  I love you.  Each and every one of you.  Thanks for stopping by.  Have super awesome and amazing weekends!

Have an awesome day!


Do You Know...

...that in this great state of Washington, you have 30 days after you move here to change over your driver license and 60 days to register your car.  Or vise versa.  And if you don't follow these laws,  it is an ARRESTABLE offense?  Interesting things one learns when one gets pulled over for speeding and tells the cop that said person just moved here (because she still has her Oregon license after 2.5 years) and he comes back and reminds said person that she got a ticket in Washington two years ago.  Oopsies.

...that I have a month and a half until I leave for Spain and all I know is my flight info?  No hotel plans.  No excursion plans.  Guess I should get to planning.

...that my sister and brother in law's 14 year anniversary was yesterday?  I'm kind of really jealous.  But I love them so very much, so it's OK.

...that I really have nothing to say but felt that I needed to post something, so here I am?  Yeah, I guess that one's pretty obvious.

Have awesome days friends!

Tuesday, July 10, 2012


Yes, a reference to the B-52s.  Kind of.

But more so, an ode to the most delectable scrumptiousness known to (wo)man.

Ode to Chocolate Wasted
Your ice cold deliciousness melts in my mouth.
Your boozy awesomeness warms my tongue.
Yes, you are technically ice cream,
But to me, you are so much more.

The boy gave you to me a while ago,
And I continue to savor you...
and Every

I have shared you with few,
But most often, I choose to love you on my own.
Chocolate Wasted, you were exactly what I needed,
At the exact moment I needed you.

Clearly I don't know how to write an Ode, but seriously...this shyte is the shyte!  

Homemade chocolate ice cream +
Lots and lots of booze mixed in =
Holy goodness in my mouth.

Yes, this is created by a professional.  Friends who live here and have tasted this amazingness are currently jealous even reading that I have this in my freezer.  Friends who are blogland friends...well, follow suit!  This. Is. Heaven!

Yet another reason that you all need to come see me!  Just sayin...  

And now my mouth waters...

Have an awesome day!

Monday, July 9, 2012

Funny the Way It Is

Fascinating really...if you stop and think about it, how incredibly small this world is;
How you meet a person and that person enters your heart immediately;
Or you meet people that help you understand how to cherish what you have, every.single.day;
Or you meet people that are absolutely the most unlikely of friends...but the connection is there, and so you run with it;
Or you hang out with friends and your "six degrees of separation" gets smaller when you take a minute to introduce yourself to that random stranger;

Have you thought about this?  The people in your life.  How they got there.  The ways they've influenced your life.  Lessons you've learned.  Experiences you've encountered.

Each and every choice you make brings people into your life that will help or hurt you.  Make wise choices 

Have an awesome day!

Sunday, July 8, 2012

Weekend of Amazing Awesomeness

The Crew et al

What an awesome weekend!  I really don't know where to start...just a whole lotta incredibleness!

We stayed at a great house on property at Sleight of Hand Cellars. Keith, the wine maker, and Adam, were so great.  Keith gave us a tour of their newly purchased vines, and Adam entertained us in the tasting room.  Later in the evening, they came to the house for a glass of wine. 

The very first photo above is from Whoopemup Hollow Cafe.  Holy hush puppies of goodness!  Their food was so very tasty.  

I could go on name dropping for days...maybe in tomorrow's post.  Or if you ever make it to Eastern Washington, you could just call me and I could take you to these places.  Yeah, let's do that!

AND I came one step closer to meeting Kelsey @ A Muse in Purple.  Long story sort of short...randomly, our friend's brother brought this girl.  I asked her the story of her life.  She started telling me...and then she said she received her MBA from Marylhurst...I'm pretty sure my eyes popped out of my head! I asked if she knows Kelsey, she does!  YAHOO!  And then the question, "How do you know Kelsey?"  Huh...well...I guess I don't...I just stalk her on the interwebs?  Anyway, photo taken with random new friend and sent to Kelsey.  Hooray for a crazy small world! 

Bottom line, I don't know that a group of 10 people has had as much fun together as we did this weekend.  

Friends, how were you weekends?  I hope they were splendid and you were able to stay cool!

Have an awesome day and week!

Thursday, July 5, 2012

Friday's Letters


Dear Summer: 108 degrees on Sunday and Monday?  Dare I say you have arrived?  Welcome!  I cannot wait to sweat profusely because of you!  No, really, just sayin...
Dear Vacation Extraordinaire: You're here!  You're finally here!  After months of talking and planning, The Crew is finally headed out!  Walla Walla and it's lovely wineries will never be the same!  
Dear Roommate: Get your shyte together or your ass is going to find itself on the curb.  For. Real.
Dear Three Day Weekend: I'm so excited to do whatever I want alllll day tomorrow until we leave for Walla Walla.  The Farmers Market tomorrow morning is a MUST!  And a pedi...this is beyond necessary. Gross.
Dear Andrae's Kitchen and Whoopemup Hollow Cafe: I am so so so looking forward to eating you this weekend!  Great food + great wine + the best company = good holy greatness of a time!
Dear Sleep: I wish you would stop avoiding me.  Yes, I understand that I need to actually be in bed at a decent hour for you to do your job, but still...when I'm there, then it's your turn, so get on it!  The bags under my eyes are becoming quite noticeable.
Dear Friends: I hope you have safe and happy weekends!  Can you tell that I'm excited for this weekend?  Yeah, I didn't think so.  Be good and have fun!

Have an awesome day!


The Afterness

It smells like hay in my office.  Wet hay.  And that smell makes me want to sneeze.  Just thought I'd share.

I hope you all had wonderful 4th of Julys.  Mine...it was incredible.  It was the start of new traditions.  It was the beginning of...I'm not sure exactly what.  But it was everything I could want it to be. 

And today is my Friday!  YAHOO!

 Have an awesome day!

Wednesday, July 4, 2012

4th of This Here Month

Happy Fourth of July Friends!

Next to Thanksgiving, the 4th of July is one of my favorites!  I have always loved fireworks.  I find them to be magical, and always find myself lost in their beauty.

In years past (11 of them, to be exact), we would go to Detroit Lake and camp.  We would go out on the boat and watch the glorious display that the city of Detroit would put on over the lake.

Lots of boats + lake/water + shaky hands = shaky photos.  But still cool!

I won't lie...my heart is a bit sad.

I'm not at the lake.  I'm not camping.

I didn't sit on the boat and watch the fireworks (even no one else did because the silly town held them on June 30th, but still, you get the point). 

However, I will take the opportunity to work so that I can have Friday off.

I will go to happy hour with the girls, and then continue the excitement at my house for jello shot making for wine tasting weekend, aka vacation extraordinaire!  And then...FIREWORKS!  YAHOO!

Friends, what plans do you have?  I hope you all have safe and happy 4th of July!  

Have an awesome day!

Tuesday, July 3, 2012

Beware. And Yes, Be Jealous

Two weeks ago, my coworker and I were commiserating over some nonsense at work.  We were walking down the hall and I let out my frustrations in the form of a pretty good front kick (yes, karate kid style).  It just so happens that said coworker and her husband own a tae kwon do school...and she was rather impressed with my kick.  Immediately, she was telling me to keep my toes back and go again.  So I did.  And she was even more impressed.  Turns out my love for kicking boxing classes at the gym has left me with quite the developed front kick.

Fast forward...

The next day, said coworker calls me into her office and informs me that she has something for me, but I need to go to her car with her to get it.  OooooKaaayyyyyy...  But then she realizes what I'm wearing and that my choice of clothing won't go with the "present" she has brought for me.  Friends...she brought me BOARDS TO BREAK!!!  Seriously.  For real...BOARDS!  I was so stinking excited!  Unfortunately, I was wearing a dress that day.  And then she left on vacation that afternoon for a week and a half.  

More fast forwarding...

Well, today she brought the boards in and told me it was time.  We went outside (don't want to break a toe/foot/femur inside the building!) to break shyte, and this is how it went down...

Sorry for all of the wind noise

The first one is a half inch board.

The second board...one. whole. inch.

What a RUSH!  What a powerful moment!  What a way to make my day!!!

So pretty much, I am that cool.  Yeah, it's true. Please don't doubt it again.  :)

Friends, what random/powerful/crazytime (note: different than crazy TOWN) stuff have you done lately?

And yes, I'm thinking of becoming a professional.  Just sayin...

Have an awesome day!

Monday, July 2, 2012

Lame Sauce

My interwebs are completely broken. In fact, I have a hotspot on my phone and it literally disappeared tonight. So dumb.

But I just wanted to say hi. Hi!

P.S. Blogger on iPhone is pretty useful in this situation. Just saying.

Have an awesome day!

Sunday, July 1, 2012

Things I'm Thinking About...

Narcissism: "Narcissistic personality disorder is a mental disorder in which people have an inflated sense of their own importance and a deep need for admiration. Those with narcissistic personality disorder believe that they're superior to others and have little regard for other people's feelings. But behind this mask of ultra-confidence lies a fragile self-esteem, vulnerable to the slightest criticism." (via)

A few months ago, my therapist told me to learn and understand what a narcissist is, and be very aware of certain behaviors while going through my healing process. Yesterday, I had the opportunity to learn first hand what narcissism is.  The whole thing is absolutely fascinating really.  No need for details, but holy crap...there are some really f'd up people in this world.  For. Real.

Self Worth: Back in February, I made a decision to be me, do me, find me.  I recently lost site of this promise to myself.  And because I lost site of it, I let my definition of self worth go down the crapper.  The thing is, I'm pretty freaking cool.  And yes, I've done stuff in this life that is far less than cool, but generally speaking, I'm an OK person, and I deserve to believe this about myself. Yesterday's facebook status (I would have tweeted it if I was a tweeter, but I'm not, so I didn't): Today I choose to BELIEVE that I hold the power and that I have the strength, and NO ONE else controls that. No. One.  

Other than that, I'm soaking up the sun and thinking about how awesome it was to have the Brian Odell Band in my neck of the woods, and how his voice puts my soul at ease.  

And I'm thanking my friends for being the most incredible people in the world.  I'm a lucky duck to have these people...and I am eternally grateful.

Friends, I hope you all had amazing weekends!  It's 4th of July week (already!), and a short one at that, although I'm working on the 4th, but only so I can take Friday off instead!  YAHOO!  Have incredible weeks everyone!

Have an awesome day!